Awaiting

Ever wonder if someone like a stranger that suddenly just pop up in your life and next become 1 of your best friends in just minutes ?

That just happened to me and now we are together as one lovely couple

I love her so much that i could do anything for her just to make her happy but sometimes i think I'm not sensitive enough to comfort her.

Lately she is being terribly emo and sad, it might not be because of me but I'm sure partly it is. I'm stupid. Seriously i don't know how or what i should do.
instead of just calling her all the time. I think i should attend some relationship courses.

I always ask myself what am I lacking ? awareness ? inventiveness in surprises ? or is it just me ? I've been trying hard to fork out a wonderful time for every single minute just for her.

Easier to say then done it seems that sometime it doesn't work that way, I for once i don't know why sometime the things i do can become a disappointment to her instead. The only time i feel the happiest moments are is when we are together hugging and cuddling, other then that when it's college stress i don't know how make her distress again.

I'm a reason type of person so i tend to reason with her about why stress came about and that maybe had just made her extra sad, of course she wanted something else. like comforts and not reasons.(thats why i say I'm stupid)

when we are back at our own homes she tend to emo lot more and i couldn't do much about it, maybe she miss me too much or maybe is because of the stress of the college life have gotten into her and there is not really much people she can hug and cry about her stress in college in her home.

I just can't wait till when we can finally 1 day be together every single day and minute that i could just come to her house and comforts her every time. It's gonna be long time till then but i can wait.


A personal note to her:
I hope you gonna be happy every single second baby..
please cheer up! everything will be okay!
I love you =)
and i know you do too!











what she had done for us :)

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The Torment in Me

Alone I live in a world of abhorrence and pain
All the torment & agony have driven me insane
Rivers of red blood slowly flow before me
Death, dread, & chaos is all that I can see
As doom-bringer, I stalk this scorched earth
A specter, cursed from the day of his birth
The bloody sun slowly crawls in the pitch-black sky
I cannot stand this wretched existence, O God let me die
I can feel, yes, I can feel the hatred boiling inside
For those because of whom many people I loved died
With the hatred & agony of mine, I shall burn my foes
Who turned my life into hell filling it with sorrows & woes
My rebellious fire will burn the throne & the palace hall
My unstoppable rage will lead my enemies to their downfall
An exile I roam in this world of sadness & gloom
Soon a bloody orchid on my grave will bloom
Shadows from my past keep haunting me
Why they just do not leave me & let me be
Tears of the sun are slowly falling on the ground
My soul is lost & my chilled body never will be found
In my wretched existence, pain is the only thing I feel & what I know
Pain is my everlasting companion that would never release me & let me go
So come & release me from my anguish once & for all
Come I plead and release out my tormented soul
Give me freedom, freedom from this suffering and pain
Now my essence slowly melts away in the drops of the heavenly rain

Good Poem or Bad?

not by me of course