Awaiting

Ever wonder if someone like a stranger that suddenly just pop up in your life and next become 1 of your best friends in just minutes ?

That just happened to me and now we are together as one lovely couple

I love her so much that i could do anything for her just to make her happy but sometimes i think I'm not sensitive enough to comfort her.

Lately she is being terribly emo and sad, it might not be because of me but I'm sure partly it is. I'm stupid. Seriously i don't know how or what i should do.
instead of just calling her all the time. I think i should attend some relationship courses.

I always ask myself what am I lacking ? awareness ? inventiveness in surprises ? or is it just me ? I've been trying hard to fork out a wonderful time for every single minute just for her.

Easier to say then done it seems that sometime it doesn't work that way, I for once i don't know why sometime the things i do can become a disappointment to her instead. The only time i feel the happiest moments are is when we are together hugging and cuddling, other then that when it's college stress i don't know how make her distress again.

I'm a reason type of person so i tend to reason with her about why stress came about and that maybe had just made her extra sad, of course she wanted something else. like comforts and not reasons.(thats why i say I'm stupid)

when we are back at our own homes she tend to emo lot more and i couldn't do much about it, maybe she miss me too much or maybe is because of the stress of the college life have gotten into her and there is not really much people she can hug and cry about her stress in college in her home.

I just can't wait till when we can finally 1 day be together every single day and minute that i could just come to her house and comforts her every time. It's gonna be long time till then but i can wait.


A personal note to her:
I hope you gonna be happy every single second baby..
please cheer up! everything will be okay!
I love you =)
and i know you do too!











what she had done for us :)

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The Torment in Me

Alone I live in a world of abhorrence and pain
All the torment & agony have driven me insane
Rivers of red blood slowly flow before me
Death, dread, & chaos is all that I can see
As doom-bringer, I stalk this scorched earth
A specter, cursed from the day of his birth
The bloody sun slowly crawls in the pitch-black sky
I cannot stand this wretched existence, O God let me die
I can feel, yes, I can feel the hatred boiling inside
For those because of whom many people I loved died
With the hatred & agony of mine, I shall burn my foes
Who turned my life into hell filling it with sorrows & woes
My rebellious fire will burn the throne & the palace hall
My unstoppable rage will lead my enemies to their downfall
An exile I roam in this world of sadness & gloom
Soon a bloody orchid on my grave will bloom
Shadows from my past keep haunting me
Why they just do not leave me & let me be
Tears of the sun are slowly falling on the ground
My soul is lost & my chilled body never will be found
In my wretched existence, pain is the only thing I feel & what I know
Pain is my everlasting companion that would never release me & let me go
So come & release me from my anguish once & for all
Come I plead and release out my tormented soul
Give me freedom, freedom from this suffering and pain
Now my essence slowly melts away in the drops of the heavenly rain

Good Poem or Bad?

not by me of course

Another Melody Another Year

Remember "Tong Hua" the wonderful music that caught many Asian girl's Heart including guys for it's awesome melody, it must have been one of the most played and sung songs in 2005! It was played absolutely everywhere throughout Asia! It Starts off very simply with a piano introduction and the emotion builds up in his voice along with the music. Quite simple melodic line and fairly repetitive but when you listen to this song it will stick in your head for ages and you’ll be singing it all day! The lyrics are really sweet and full of sweet sentimental lines such as “when you declared your love for me, my entire sky lit up with stars” That is what i call "Good Phrase Guang Liang"

anyway there is this guy named Kyle, did a "piano improvisation" on that song and i gotta tell you he played it in such a way that even G.Liang himself might be proud of it!



Here is a few more of his works
You Raise Me Up by JOSH!!!! Groban.. hahah



Canon in C






well thats all i got for today

2008 is coming real soon like in (2)days

cheers to 2008! bye bye noob 2007 hahaha

Clannad's Beautiful Melody

Clannad is one of the most anticipated anime this fall and one of the reasons for this has to be its splendid soundtrack and BGM (background music) used in the series. I particularly love the BGM found in episode 1 when Nagisa was introduced. Below is the full version of that BGM. Truly a masterpiece.



The Melodious & Soothing BGM

The tune and instruments used are just simply perfect. Great for listening in the night before you sleep. Also, the tune is actually derived from the ending theme, Dango Daikazoku! This ED is also one of my instant faves ever since I listened to it for the first time.

Once again, I suppose many of you might already have noticed that the tune for Dango Daikazoku is actually derived from the ending song in the original Clannad Visual Novel, entitled ‘Chiisana Te no Hira‘ or ‘A Tiny Palm’. This song gives rise to many other wonderful songs and music used in the visual novel as well as the anime and can be said to be the mother of all songs in Clannad. You will fall in amazement once you listened to it. Another masterpiece.



Chiisana Te no Hira by Riya

‘Chiisana Te no Hira’ also gives birth to lots of melodious piano tunes which soothe one’s soul. Too bad I can’t find the videos for those piano tunes. But after almost a whole day of searching, I finally found all the MP3s which are associated to ‘Chiisana Te no Hira’. Took me great lengths and pains just to find those few songs… But still, it was definitely worth it =)

They will no doubt remain in my MP3 player forever..

P.S. To those who want the songs can ask me thru msn :) or leave your email i shall send it to u ASAP

You don't exist

My smile wavers
My voice trembles
The scenery is blurring

I wanted to make friends with you and called out
Your pure eyes were dazzling
Because I want to be close to you, more and more
I pretend to not know about my little pain

When did you gain
The person who is truly precious to you?
You're frolicking, talking more than usual, right?
Then the reality stabs

My smile wavers
My voice trembles
I look down as if unworried
You don't...exist
You're not...here
Even though we understood each other, there was an unburied distance

Just by exchanging words, I became happy
Wrapped by your tender eyes
While scared of my earnest feelings
I gently offered you my fullest thoughts

I want to slowly nurture
Our truly precious encounter
I want to send it to you, but I can't reach you; since when
Did only anxiety expand?

That it's destiny for us to be separated...
I believed that we'd be like this forever
You don't...exist
You're not...here
Without being able to accept it, I kept searching for you

My tears fall
My words fade
My entwined thoughts won't come apart
You don't...exist
You're not...here
I lost my destination; I give a lonely sigh

Because I'm here with a smile...let me love you